hcg

So,I have been on and off hcg for about 5 months now, it worked very well for me my first round I went from 145 to 131 in a week and a half. I got very comfy with my new weight and went onto p3, I ended up cheating with some pop tarts and gained 6 lbs. I went back on the hcg phase 2 and after a week I loss the weight I had gained in p3. Then I cheated again while at 131 lbs in phase 2. The next day I weighed in and had lost 2 lbs, so I just kept on cheating for the next week of p2 x_x. I went into p3, afraid that once I stopped taking the drops I would gain like 20 lbs but was still eating the junk all the way into p3. I lost another lb,and could not get my head together and continued to cheat anyway. I cheated for 3 weeks everyday on p3, I mean pizza,wings,cake everything and I was not gaining any weight,until I hit p4 then the weight was coming back slowly with 1lb a day to every other day. Now I'm at 139. I started another round of hcg 3 weeks ago and I cheated everyday for 13 days :'( I stopped for about 5 days or so and started again 2 days ago on phase 2. I cheated for the 2 days and I'm afraid I might be so discouraged. I want too loss the weight very bad but the harder I try the harder I fail. I am going through a lot of stress and I'm very depressed not because of the cheats, but I have a problem with depression my whole life, I'm an emotional eater. I don't recommend anyone cheat on any diet especially a diet like hcg when it really does all the work for you. Don't cheat yourself. I'm getting my focus back and ill take those 2 days as load days and start fresh tomorrow. Although I want to do this right Its hard without any support I mean the first time I loss all my weight no one noticed and when I told them they just said "oh, good for you." I know I should be strong and I am in many ways,I really don't like too feel alone. I really want too loss this weight and am gonna keep trying. Maybe if I blog I'll stick too it cause ill be reporting it^_^ Thanks for stopping by have a nice day!